Grateful for my yoga classes. The fact that its paid for a year leaves me with no excuses but to attend. The calmness of the meditation, the slow asanas all give me hope. That this will heal my body

Grateful for my job. For the flexi timings it allows. For the ability to work from home. For the luxuries of having a relaxed breakfast with the BH and coffee on the terrace before the madness starts.

Grateful for the new house. The pictures are yet to be put up and the rooms still need to be organised. But even without these, having it turn out the way it has is satisfying.

Grateful for the greenery and the terrace. Though we haven't yet started using it full swing, its been the ideal spot for a chai, to read in peace, for I to play with his cars.

Grateful for all the blessings, the friends, the love and the laughter that come when I least expect and most need it

Conversations with siri

Bambi to Siri
Tell me Siri, do I like my dada or mama more?
Siri : I really couldn't say :-)
**************************************************************** Siri, do you have a mama?
Siri: Its just you and me!
Siri is getting more and more diplomatic by the day!


The new house is coming along. Its that last stage of the work when it just isnt getting over and there are hundreds of things to do.

We want to move in three weeks and as of today it seems highly unlikely. I have this weird obsession that this place might be more saner and less cluttered and lucky for us. Lucky? Now where did that thought come from? All the houses we have lived in have given us their share of joys and sorrows. Hopefully, here the joy will overshadow everything else.

Marie Kondo is on my mind these days. Taking only those things that gives me joy and makes me happy. Well, that doesn't apply to those clothes that do not fit and I might get into them sometime later!!!

I hope that with a place for everything, we will manage to keep it clean. The kids and us!

Mentally am in a mess. There are so many things happening simultaneously, with work and this and kids. Its like a screen with hundreds of tabs open at a time!

Need to focus.. to stay calm.. there is this usual s…


Just as he is entering school, he turns back and says "Mama, dont worry... I dont have exams today!"

As if I am the one who needs to worry about him having exams!!!

Feb Day 6

The highs and lows.. today its the low!

Feeling disappointed that my health is not improving and the criticism from everybody. You are not doing enough.. not doing anything regularly..
Its easy for people to say.. but what they do not realise is I'm no superman to continue doing things without seeing any benefits. Its extremely frustrating to not see any benefits, to fight the cravings, tiredness along with trying to stay positive.

Sometimes, the disappointment is that I try so hard to encourage everybody around me, go out of my way to help friends and family achieve what they want to.. but when it comes to supporting me, there is nobody around. I know this is a very unfair statement to make, but today this is how I feel.

I am tired of the constant criticism, the small niggling ones that never focus on what I have achieved, but more on what I let slip...
I am tired of the constant battles of having to prove myself again and again...
I am tired and jealous of others whose parents …

Feb Day 5

snippets from when Bambi was small..

"mama.. mooon.. see... ayyo moon potti poyi!!!!"
(it was a half moon)

dada... bambi kutty alla.. kutta vilicha mathi... ( because the BH calls Mowgli kutta)

mama.. bambi chaaatambo aanu...
what is that?
chaatamboo... (she meant chattambi!)


and yesterday..

She didnt wish her old drawing teacher and when I asked her why, this was the reply
"Bambi oru secret parayaam.. you can tell nobody.. but you can tell dada and chacha..
Bambi shy aanu"

Feb Day 4