Tuesday, February 25, 2014

a sweet and sour year

The year that was!

1.Got into a new job and discovered DAILY 12 hr work days. The funny part is that I'm enjoying it!!!
2.The BH changed his job after 7+ years of being with the same company. Resigned from the new job 7 months later!
3.Faced the fear of losing Mowgli and Bambi
4. Found my dream house.. obsessed over it for months and then let it go
5.Found the "ideal" school for Mowgli and Bambi; made plans and dreams…but didnt get through.. limited seats and all
6.Lost 5 kgs.. bought a completely new wardrobe… gained back 5 kgs.. back to old clothes coz new ones no longer fit!!!

It was a totally sweet and sour year…

A year that challenged both of us professionally. The BH was not happy from day one .. a nagging gut feel that this was not the right job.. struggled with the feeling for months and then one fine day decided to move on…took a break for the first time and enjoyed one month fully… took the time to think what exactly does he want to do, came up with something that w eboth felt was right, but maybe its not the right time to start that…

As for me, I handled so many different roles in the new organization that there was never a dull moment. The downside to this was that there was no time for anything. My power yoga classes were stopped. No gym.. tried to run regularly, but even that fizzled out after a while… am trying to get back to the groove again.. but it is really frustrating. It’s just 8 kgs away from me and my old jeans  but those 8 kgs. They are like the Grand Canyon!!!!

The Bambi scare.. the whole ‘must be leukemia’ part and the two minutes when we lost Mowgli at a crowded park in Coorg; they are my worst nightmares. It hits me when I least expect it and I relive those moments gain. Frantically calling out for Mowgli in a park at dusk.. I don’t even remember the man who was helping Mowgli find us.. did we thank him? I don’t know… I remember shaking a scared Mowgli.. my hands were trembling for a long time. all I could think of was what if we had not found him? It still keeps me awake…

There were so many things that we met this year that felt so right.. like the house, the school.. but none of it materialized. Maybe this was the universe showing us what we really want and pushing us to get there somehow.

The new year seems very uncertain.. i dont know what is in store for us... all I know is that this will be a milestone year for us.. maybe a lot of firsts but definitely a year that we will not forget!