Its what drew me
towards zed earth, good earth.. the community.. the fresh air.. being connected to nature...the aspiration
of having a fruitful life, one in which I
contribute to society, to my family, to my work and going to bed contented.
Every couple of months, I get into this introspection.. am I
doing enough.. should be doing more.. and then somehow hatch up schemes that I think
will change our life.. It is this restlessness within me that I don’t understand..
The BH makes fun of me saying that if I just use the time that I spend in
thinking and planning maybe things will get done faster. And for all this talk,
am yet to stick onto something. A focused 30 min of exercise daily.. some
prayer time regularly.. a bedtime ritual.. even something as simple as rubbing cream
on my feet every night. Is it a lack of
discipline or motivation?? I don’t know. Sometime it works if i have somebody
keeping a tab… after the initial burst and the subsequent lag, I find that if I
stick on to something till then the internal motivation kicks in.. its just
that the lag period in between is quite strong!
So here I am yet again thinking of how to improve our
quality of life.. more music.. less shouting.. more loving and the feeling of
being cocooned in that warmth of togetherness… To make our home a haven where
we rest in peace and gain energy to face the world!
